Serendipity Words

I was sitting here staring at the blank screen wondering what words would fill the pages. What thoughts would flow from my fingertips? I mean it has been quite some time since I shared anything I had written. Replaying thoughts and comments throughout the week. The only thought was words. Words can make or break a person. They can bring hope and joy, or they can destroy and cause despair. We as a society hear many words that we base our lives from. Our actions from the words. Our dreams from. Until we hit that one point. We hear those words of you can’t do it. You won’t make it. Your writing doesn’t matter. Your opinion doesn’t matter. But why? Why don’t they matter? There’s no backup to the words being spoken. There’s nothing legitimately holding you back.

You see those words become a part of us. They live in our minds. We take them as our shield and push through to see and do whatever someone else wants us to do. See the words you don’t matter were never directly said to me, but I wore them as if they were my label. I heard things like “you’re just a kid you don’t have a say” or others like “want in one hand and ……… in the other and see which one fills up faster”. I know I’m not the only one to hear those. But that wasn’t all. Words trickled down and not all of them were meant for me to hear. Words like “you love her more”. For me, these words were used out of spite and jealousy, and I didn’t know they would become my unavoidable label.  These words came out of 1 person in my life. The person I looked to provide love, guidance, and support during an already traumatic time.  I didn’t know then that it wasn’t me living those words.

So, for years I sat in my own self-doubt trying to prove those WORDS wrong. But for who? The one that said them couldn’t be proved wrong so why was I trying? Nobody could see the words running through my mind if I held a smile on my face and let it be. Nobody else could see how hard I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. But here’s the thing for 29 years I let someone else’s words determine my life. Motivate my actions. Encourage my dreams when I was suffocating myself in the process. For 29 years I deemed myself unworthy, unloved, and unsuccessful. Everything I did was done to turn and say, “I told you so”. All because of words. The very thing that broke me also built me. The very thing I feared hearing I forced myself to believe. If I let myself believe that I was unworthy I couldn’t let myself down right. I couldn’t fail. Yet I lived in a world of constant failure. All because of WORDS.

It’s not much and I can’t make it change overnight. But what if those words are the same thing that saves your soul? If you listen so deeply to words that kill, why are we so quick to run from words that heal? The Bible. Written in WORDS, stories filled with WORDS. Words that save and heal all because they believed the words spoken over and to them. So, these are my words to you reading this. Your words to one another matter. They impact everyone around you. My words to you are that you ARE worthy. Your dreams ARE remarkable and chasable. You ARE loveable and wanted. Proverbs 16:29 NKJV “Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, Sweetness to the soul and health to the bones”. Speak the WORDS you want to hear. Speak the WORDS you desire to fill your soul and you will truly fill someone else’s cup.